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Nirvana

by JEXNO

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Synth In my opinion, this is the Pet Sounds of Jexno's library. Starting with an intro that dives you into the story of depression, anxiety, and more. Taking notes from Weezers Pinkerton and Car Seat Headrests Twin Fantasy, stories are told and feelings are shared. Huzzah to the new king of bandcamp indie rock. Favorite track: Quiet Down.
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EVERYTHING IS ENORMOUS Favorite track: Kings Made Of Slime.
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Step onto the boardwalk as the feet try to hold me down. Help me fall into the sea, help the water fill my lungs. I think you’ve had enough of this Oh, I don’t want for this to happen again. Not again. I swear you’re gonna be my first hello and my last goodbye. None of us really want to die so my last words are you’re gonna be my first hello and my last goodbye. We’ll be hanging onto the memories like we are going to die. Hold you tighter, as I look at you, look you in the eyes. Do you wanna say goodbye? We can run away or walk forever. do you ever think that we are made for each other? Do you wanna run away or walk forever do you ever think that we are made for each other? Do you wanna run away or walk forever do you ever think that we were ever made for each other? Do you wanna run away or walk forever Do you wanna run away for us together, do you wanna die? What’s the harm in harming one another You know we can’t harm each other forever and live so happily. Do you wanna run away forever Or walk the streets alone together? Do you wanna die? I think you want much more of this I don’t want you I don’t want any of this Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ohh, ohh, ooh, ooh, ooh (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10)
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Shine 05:01
Fifteen days ahead of the trouble; I packed up and moved far away. Square like shapes pushing against my head as the demons come marching this way. Do the walls start caving into the room? Do the voices in your head ever comfort you? Cause they do. There's a sinister silence filling the room (It just seems like it happens to no one else but does it happen to you?) The devil was once an angel so what do you see? (The world is crumbling down on top of me) The road to the promised land has been closed down, the elevator's out of order, we can't get out of town. Across the boardwalk, across the sea, the land starts to stretch and bleed and fall apart. Do the walls start caving into the room? Do the voices in your head ever comfort you? Cause they do- Take the drink straight out of my hand Will you come into my stretching bleeding land, all the people, all around come and wait for the new desired sound. Even when the sun don't shine and my world will never be mine Maybe we'll be able, Maybe we'll be able to take it back Even when the sun don't shine and my world will never be mine Maybe we'll be able, Maybe we'll be able to take it back Even when the sun don't shine and my world will never be mine Maybe we'll be able, Maybe we'll be able to take it back.
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I am the reason why you never needed me I am the only one who could save you from beginning And that feeling in your bones says to go the other way I’m not a lyrcist I just need to write today You said that love isn’t supposed to feel like this I said with time it will and with time everything will be fixed I know it hurts but you have to let it go How many things did you want in life, did you imagine they’ll happen all twice Start picking up the pieces of your heart Start picking up the pieces of your heart We gather to see the world and what it wants from us The meaning of it all is just a little sad to touch But we push our bones together and keep walking all the way I bet your soulmates somewhere out there but I bet it isn’t me You said that love isn’t supposed to feel like this I said with time it will and with time it will all be fixed I know it hurts but you have to let it go How many things did you want in life so you move across the sea and you were never here to see when i say happy birthday you were never here to see so you move across the sea and you were never here to see when i say happy birthday you were never here to see so you move across the sea and you were never here to see when they said happy birthday you were never here to see so you move across the sea where you never meant to see when they say happy birthday you were never here to see where they say happy birthday you were never here to see where they said happy birthday to your heart so you move across the sea where you never meant to see where they said happy birthday to your heart I know it hurts but you have to let it go How many things did you want in life, did you ima-
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Quiet Down 03:50
I'm stuck in my mind, I could not see where I wanted to go, I was a bit too far away from the show well I could not go far away but you were just so far away and I couldn't stop myself from throwing shade. You see, I move so fast. I could not contain myself. You were scared and I was scareder. Beware, Beware, Beware, Beware. Please don't speak your mind, first I thought everything was fine but now I'm not sure what's in my mind. who am I to start a fight? first I thought everything was fine but now I'm not sure what's in my mind (Repeated) don't move, I wanna stop shaking. please, I'm so tired. Settle down, we're in a quiet place, now we got a real straight face, no more words, now doesn't seem absurd. all our lives, we let our mom just drive, but it seems that we have hands (that doesn't mean we're a man) Where did the love go (oooh) when everything moves so slow (ohhhh) don't you think you could find the time for at least a high five. (In a secret place we will find our ways and destroy them all) that's how the ball seems to roll. don't move, I wanna stop shaking. please, I'm so tired.
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I don't know why you cry, I'm not evil. I guess I was just a bit crazy. I guess I saw nothing, I don't know why. What? What do you want from me? I bet it's something that you want but something that I'm not and something you wouldn't love. Something you wouldn't love (Repeated)
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Tim O Mortem 05:03
I’m destructive, I just cause you harm and when I don’t like myself I just break down hard so I look the other way I’m the dog, I just make a mess and when you tell me what I’ve done I just tilt my head so you look the other way I’ll just waste my life between the lines, I’ll be running out of time I’ll be laying all alone can you save me? i don’t think you can so we look the other way. please, i can fix myself i don’t what it is but i’m trying to get help oh, we look the other way wonder, by the eyes of storm and the cum stains on the floor and the torn up jeans, you were blinded you were blinded don’t you love me more than your torn up world i thought you had enough but it turns out you were alone the whole time i was here you were alone the whole time i was here for you. please, just waste your life between the lines, we’ll be running out of time and we won’t be all alone wait, we can live so happily, just you and me. no one else around to tell me what i’m doing wrong can you save me can you save me can you save me? i don’t think you can so I look the other way. do you ever think i’ll change the only way through this is through the hardest of pain I’ll be waiting for you here waiting for you here.
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​Walk around your broken street, it’s hard to get down on your knees, nature’s a cycle and men cause harm but in your mind nothings wrong It’s a land of broken dreams and it’s darker than it seems, destroyed love, broken memories; it’s a land of broken dreams You set straight into your path, there’s no time for good or bad, love isn’t easy and life is hard, the ground is falling so you’re chasing the stars. And the days go on and on, the weight of life moves you along, but did you know your religion caused so much death, you keep on living till there’s no life left. It’s a land of broken dreams and it’s darker than it seems, destroyed love, broken memories; it’s a land of broken dreams
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Rat 04:29
god, you know my strengths you know the best and everybody claps when you say "oh, him? he's the worst" you're the best. and my good friend can you guess the rest? my good friend can you guess the rest. god knows I'm a filthy rat you, you know you're the best god, god knows I'm the worst god, god know you're the best god knows you're the best god knows you're the best my, it seems you're gone i'll wait right here and everyone comes in and makes no room room/room for me who are you? you're not her "settle down" you're not here I'm right here all alone you left me in the dust where have you gone are you far away are you on a nice vacation do you love me still i'm tired when will you treat me right it was a great night, when you held my hand god, who are you, i am her, who is this, i do not know, i can guess, you can't guess, I'm just here and you're right- 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 sad songs really really make me wanna suffocate 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 sad songs really really make me wanna suffocate 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 sad songs really really make me wanna suffocate 1 2 "uh, so i was walking, well i was uh, i was walking and i saw like uh, uh, a bottle of liquor on the ground, it was like half full" god knows I'm a filthy rat you, you know you're the best god, god knows I'm the worst god, god know you're the best god knows you're the best god knows you're the best
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run in the fields till you feel better i know i said some stuff that i shouldn't have said i don't know what's worse, that i hurt you or that i don't feel bad no need to make me feel better i feel fine by myself i don't need anybody all i need is a little bit of hurt i never wanted to be like this, i don't want to be like this anymore and i'm too afraid to change, and I'm too afraid to stay the same i forgive you for leaving me behind if i were you, i would do it too. i don't want to be this stubborn and i don't really want to change i don't want my face this shape i don't want to be this way i never wanted to be this way a cowards prayer is for sympathy.
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A gasp for air, the cum stains on the ground don’t make us feel any better Am I alone, or is it just for now and I just can’t take it anymore Are you hard, I could see it in your eyes when you crossed your heart Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh it’s so hard, could you stand to be alone for any longer Are you the goal, my own path or am I just not really there Oh well, oh well This is the end for me Oh well, oh well This is the Get out, theres nothing here to care about, does it feel good or is the light too blinding to see what you’d really do God, Forgive me The Holy Spirit, for I have sinned.
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Heartless 02:46
​I wake up and I start to feel the little pins and needles, you wake up and you already feel willing to die, I get up and my lips already feel smug and dry, you get up and you already feel like you’ve lived your whole life But who am I, the world has no sympathy for a heartless dick, who are you, the world has no sympathy for one who’s been used by them Who is this, I don’t even know anymore, what is this you’re feelings is that happiness knowing at the door. But where do I stay the night once you kick me out, where do I make my bed to sleep, it’s time to sleep in it But can you say goodnight to me Can you please give a kiss to sleep And then I’ll promise I’ll go to bed.
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Manipulator 07:44
go away, I will hurt you again go away, I will hurt you again but what happened when you said you didn't like it anymore you cried you cried go away, I don't (backwards lyrics) go away, I don't need you anymore but what happened you didn't like it anymore you cried you cried is everything my fault or is it yours? i cry i cry but what happened when you said you dint want come here anymore we died we died what happened when you said you didn't like it anymore we died we die we die we die we die we die (what is jealousy, jealousy means I'm envious of that other person for what he has)
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Show me the way til I get up and shout, “we were nothing back then so what are we now, oh, your highness” “it’s behind us, we were dumb at the start, we held onto our hearts” The panic attacks don’t seem to be getting any better, I rustled the cage till you gave me the letter” “you felt good inside, I’m sorry I couldn’t stay for the rest of my life but Is that a crime?” “Is that a crime?” “Is that a crime” Is that a crime?” Oh and the sleepless nights won’t get any better, I wrote this whole album to show you i cared but it’s a crime” To waste my time. I know the way can I get up and shout we were nothing back then and we sure as hell aren’t It’s behind us It’s behind us Hope you have a great time with your bad as hell life I hope you find happiness somewhere inside But it’s useless Oh it’s useless We were there from the start but we had nothing to make my heart move. Did you have anything ? I don’t think you had anything. Oh my god I can’t feel anything I ruin myself every step at a time But it’s useless oh it’s uselsss Oh I couldn’t wait till you came back and saw my face again. I waited by the pond till I you came out the water, you looked so afraid but so sure that you wanna, so I took you back home, glad I could help a suicide. I couldn’t sleep at night, just wondering what you were doing, you didn’t return any of my calls so I waited till the early morning How embarrassing Glad I could be anything I will wait inside for you to wonder back home so I can see that pretty face once again You told me that you wanted to travel the world I said “come on babe let’s go” but I was terrified plus you didn’t need a friend for the night. God know what I was doing I sure as hell didn’t, afraid you’d fall in love with a man more efficient I got up and left Hoping you’d follow the lights But your family always knew that you had a young heart and you didn’t want the heartbreak to hit me too hard, so you stayed with me, gave me some company But who were you talking to, that one day I knew, you’d want someone else But I will stay inside till you get up and leave me you don’t need nobody like me I won’t touch you again I won’t touch you anymore You see everything’s perfect, everything’s enormous in its size. You see I am not evil I’m only misunderstood and so are you. You were right the whole entire time, I didn’t believe a thing But who were you talking to, that one day I knew, you’d want someone else
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about

The first half of this album are mostly songs I wrote in 2015-2016 minus , quiet down and heartless dick.
the second half are songs written at the current time in 2018
the album is split into two parts , transitioning at the 9th track

The Album Art is a deformed portrait of Ulrika Eleonora Stålhammar

credits

released November 21, 2018

samples used:
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Depression: www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU0l6Dne57c
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Love:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMcHtSjtNBY
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Soul Mates:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGOYrSpDg_Y
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Empathy:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhVsgxlYsEA
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Jealousy:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GDCDY6cbII
Rabbi Dr. Abraham Twerski On Responding To Stress:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=3aDXM5H-Fuw
Airport Love Theme by Dia Prometido:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcqEds4kcMU

(These ones I couldn't find links to)
Water Run: (A small clip of this sample was played and repeated at the end of the 9th track as well as the music played silently at the end of Introducing...)
Mountain Trip: (This is the reversed music at the beginning of Manipulator)

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